Thursday, February 24, 2011

Day 80. - Going Down in BMI

So, I haven't been paying much attention to my BMI as of ever... But I was reading another blog and she commented that her BMI had gone down 4 points!

And I got to thinking, that is really good.

I redid my BMI and realized that it had gone down by 6 points! Not only that, but I went from Super Obese to ONLY Morbidly Obese, oh yes, things are looking up. ;)

That was a joke up there. But seriously, it is great to move down a classification. Now I am only "two times more than ideal weight." .... oh yeah, moving on, moving on, moving on... moving on down.

It's the little things in life.

Day 79. - New Weight Bracket!

CW: 259.6

If you have never had to lose weight, or lose a significant amount of weight, you will never understand the joy of hitting a new weight bracket... it's something about seeing that number change... instead of 90 something it is 80 something and it just makes you happy.

I am completely back on track. I must admit that the cravings were horrendous though. I even had a dream about crawling through a donut tunnel.

What is most exciting is that the next weight bracket puts me closer to 200 than to 300.... is it sad that this is enough to make me super happy?

I also wanted to post a picture of me kayaking and rock climbing this past weekend!

Fat people CAN be active too!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Monday, February 21, 2011

Day 76. - I cheated...

...I think that I had a really good run of 75 days though...

On Saturday, I went to Nashville and met with an old friend for some good conversation and good times.

But, my friend and I always eat at Pizza Hut every time we see each other...
So, I kind of knew I would be cheating and it was a bit of a planned cheat.

I ate three pieces of pepperoni pizza and two cheesesticks.

And they were as good as I remember.
BUT, and this is a huge but, after eating the food, I was extremely tired. I could barely make the drive home without falling asleep. It did made me remember how much energy I have gained by sticking to the no-carb lifestyle.

They say the hardest thing about cheating on this plan, is then getting back on the plan. And I have found that that has been the case.

I am getting back on plan, but all cravings are back and it is very difficult to focus and not eat foods that are off plan.

My one motivation is that my weigh in is on Wednesday and I do not want to have gained weight from this week, so I feel like if I can just not cheat the rest of the week, I should at least be at the weight I was at. I may not have lost weight, but that is okay. I just don't want to have gained 7 or 8 pounds...even in water weight.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Day 70. - Weight Gain

I went to Nashville for a few days, stuck to the plan, still no cheating whatsoever...

and gained 3 pounds.

What is most interesting about this is that normally, on any plan, the moment I gain is the moment I binge.

That did not happen this time. I just said, "Okay, it could be water weight." When I weighed the next day and it said the same thing, I said, "Okay, well, let's evaluate what I have been eating and tweek it, get back to basics. No more frankenfoods."

So, while I am not happy that I gained weight... not in the least... I do feel like this is a permanent thing. I feel like this is for life. And that is not something I have felt on any other plan.

In a way, gaining the weight really shows me how far I have come in a little over two months, not just physically, but mentally. And the mental battles is probably 80% of the total fight.

Friday, February 11, 2011

Day 66. - Average time to develop a habit.

Need to Form a New Habit? 66 Days

For those of you who don't know, recent studies show that in order to develop a habit, a habit that requires dedication and determination, a habit like eating a certain diet...

It takes approximately 66 days... 66 days of complete, unwavering dedication to the task at hand. 66 days without cheating.

This means that it becomes automatic to make the correct food choices, you are less likely to cheat in the long run, and it is easier for you to stick to the way of eating for the long haul, almost for the rest of your life.

That being said, Day 66, no cheating, is a huge deal. Huge Effing Deal.

I think that reaching this point makes me happier than losing 10% of my weight.

If you would like to read about the evidence:

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Day 60 - Battle Wounds

I have my first battle wounds training for the half marathon.

These are big blisters on my feet due to wearing the wrong socks. Who would have known that socks matter?

Friday, February 4, 2011

Day 59 - Lucid Dreams

Every once in a while I will have very vivid dreams about food.

These dreams always consist of food I am not allowed to eat and of me accidentally eating it. The interesting thing is that it is never horrible food that I am eating in the dream. It isn't ever donuts or cake or french fries or ice cream.

Last night, I had a dream where I went to a sandwich shop and I tried to order a sandwich wrapped in bibb lettuce instead of the bread. But, the man gave me a sandwich on whole wheat bread and I ate half of it before even realizing the bread was there. Then, I was extremely upset throughout the rest of the dream because I couldn't believe I had blown it on such a dry and unsatisfying carb filled food.

In the past, I have had dreams about macaroni and cheese, bagels, white bread, and potatoes.

The craziest thing about this dreams is how real they seem. Sometimes I wake up and wonder if I really did eat the food and it always takes me about an hour to figure out that it was just a dream and not something I really ate.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Day 58 - Cravings, cravings, cravings...

CW: 265.8

I can always tell when I have taken into too many artificial sweeteners. Suddenly, the cravings hit and the cravings hit strong.

Today, I had a bit of a binge day. Now, I didn't eat anything off of the acceptable food list... but I did eat a lot on it.

It was definitely a binge though because I ate an entire pack of pepperoni sticks, three eggs, bacon, cheese, 10 ounces of chicken... okay, when I write it out, it doesn't look like a binge. But it certainly feels like it and I am sure that if I had more ready to eat foods, it would have been a full out binge.

Sometimes, I feel out of control with my foods. Generally this means that I am not eating enough vegetables... and as you can see from the above, I am not at all. My stomach has been cramping a lot, and it cramps more when I eat salads. Trying to figure out the problem...