So, yesterday, I ate three pieces of chocolate.
This chocolate was sent to me by a friend from St. Louis. It was from a well known chocolate factory. He knows that I've been kind of down lately and I feel like everything is going wrong.
So. I ate three pieces of the chocolate and gave the rest to my roommates.
I do not regret this. My weight was actually down this morning. And it did not make it any harder for me to continue on plan today.
I feel awake. I feel happy. I feel like I can do this.
So, life is waiting!
Showing posts with label Cheating. Show all posts
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Thursday, March 8, 2012
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Day 2 (Again): Back in the Saddle
My last post was about the same thing that this post will be about.
How horrible is that?
Three months later and I never got back on track... until yesterday.
Three months. I could have been down to skydiving weight. I could have been healthier, skinnier, closer to shedding this fat suit completely.
But, alas, I enjoyed cookies and cakes and ice cream. I enjoyed grilled cheeses and french fries and donuts. I enjoyed it all.
Until I finally stepped back on Saturday and thought, 'I am tired all the time. I am fatigued. I am struggling going up three flights of stairs. What is it going to take to get me back on track?'
There have been some major changes in my life since March. I have two jobs now. One for the American Cancer Society and one for a local market research firm.
I enjoy them both, but this means I am working quite a lot of hours every week.
Additionally, I have been dating a boy that I do very much enjoy. And he is in wonderful shape which inspires me to keep going and get back to it as well.
So, here I am. starting over. again. And, I was going to go ahead and start a new blog, start a new one where Day 1 would be fresh and nice and clean.
Free from all past mistakes, where I would be perfect and eat my 20 carbs daily during the first two weeks. Where I would be perfect and work out according to a schedule all the time, without missing one, without complaint. Where I would be perfect and never cheat, never slip up, never go off track.
And then I thought... no. This is normal. People go on and off the wagon all the time. No need to pretend that it doesn't happen. No need to have a clean slate. Just pick up from here and move forward.
So here I am, Day 2 (again), going through the Atkins Induction Flu (again).
But the difference is that this time.. this time, I know that at the end of this week, I will have energy. My cravings will be gone. And it will be worth it.
Current Stats:
Weight: 266.4
Urine: Yellow (I know, TMI, but I think it is very important to note since I do remember that when I was on Atkins before, my urine was always crystal clear)
Energy Level: Very low, tired, cranky, lack of motivation
Exercise: 3 Miles at about 1 hr and 10 minutes, extremely difficult to even finish.
Current ST Activity Goal: Kayaking this week
Current LT activity Goal: September 24th Half Marathon
How horrible is that?
Three months later and I never got back on track... until yesterday.
Three months. I could have been down to skydiving weight. I could have been healthier, skinnier, closer to shedding this fat suit completely.
But, alas, I enjoyed cookies and cakes and ice cream. I enjoyed grilled cheeses and french fries and donuts. I enjoyed it all.
Until I finally stepped back on Saturday and thought, 'I am tired all the time. I am fatigued. I am struggling going up three flights of stairs. What is it going to take to get me back on track?'
There have been some major changes in my life since March. I have two jobs now. One for the American Cancer Society and one for a local market research firm.
I enjoy them both, but this means I am working quite a lot of hours every week.
Additionally, I have been dating a boy that I do very much enjoy. And he is in wonderful shape which inspires me to keep going and get back to it as well.
So, here I am. starting over. again. And, I was going to go ahead and start a new blog, start a new one where Day 1 would be fresh and nice and clean.
Free from all past mistakes, where I would be perfect and eat my 20 carbs daily during the first two weeks. Where I would be perfect and work out according to a schedule all the time, without missing one, without complaint. Where I would be perfect and never cheat, never slip up, never go off track.
And then I thought... no. This is normal. People go on and off the wagon all the time. No need to pretend that it doesn't happen. No need to have a clean slate. Just pick up from here and move forward.
So here I am, Day 2 (again), going through the Atkins Induction Flu (again).
But the difference is that this time.. this time, I know that at the end of this week, I will have energy. My cravings will be gone. And it will be worth it.
Current Stats:
Weight: 266.4
Urine: Yellow (I know, TMI, but I think it is very important to note since I do remember that when I was on Atkins before, my urine was always crystal clear)
Energy Level: Very low, tired, cranky, lack of motivation
Exercise: 3 Miles at about 1 hr and 10 minutes, extremely difficult to even finish.
Current ST Activity Goal: Kayaking this week
Current LT activity Goal: September 24th Half Marathon
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Day 113 - Falling off the track...
CW: 261.2
Yes, that is a gain... a big gain. I have been off track for nearly two weeks now... well... I guess more like 10 days.
That is why I avoided this place, and the scale. And it reminded me why I weigh myself every day.
The downfall started with something so simple. I went camping. I ate one tiny little minuscule s'more... which led to a landslide.
I think that it led to a landslide because I thought, it's okay that I cheated a little, I will just wait a few days and get on the scale when the water weight is gone... well. then since I wasn't weighing myself I kept pushing it back and back and back and eating more and more and more.
And let me tell you, the worst part of this diet/lifestyle is getting on it. Once you are on it, I promise, the cravings really are not there. They really do go away for the most part. But, you can still get sidetracked, as I have proven.
But, I am here to write about the reasons you should not cheat, and what cheating this much has shown me.
1. My energy level off of Atkins goes way down. I feel like I could sleep for 10-12 hours a day and not get enough sleep.
2. My desire to workout becomes non-existent.
3. I am cranky.
4. No matter how much I eat, I am hungry. I can eat 4000 calories and still be hungry.
5. It's never a good time to get back on track.
6. Once again, you realize that nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
7. My stomach is bloated.
8. I feel depressed, sad, out of control.
9. My face is breaking out.
10. This is such a long journey, and this cheat has set me back probably a total of 3 weeks. It sucks to realize.
However, I am getting back to it. I am strong, I am confident, I am going full force. I just have to commit to not cheating. Commit to the fact that this is worth so much more than a s'more.
Yes, that is a gain... a big gain. I have been off track for nearly two weeks now... well... I guess more like 10 days.
That is why I avoided this place, and the scale. And it reminded me why I weigh myself every day.
The downfall started with something so simple. I went camping. I ate one tiny little minuscule s'more... which led to a landslide.
I think that it led to a landslide because I thought, it's okay that I cheated a little, I will just wait a few days and get on the scale when the water weight is gone... well. then since I wasn't weighing myself I kept pushing it back and back and back and eating more and more and more.
And let me tell you, the worst part of this diet/lifestyle is getting on it. Once you are on it, I promise, the cravings really are not there. They really do go away for the most part. But, you can still get sidetracked, as I have proven.
But, I am here to write about the reasons you should not cheat, and what cheating this much has shown me.
1. My energy level off of Atkins goes way down. I feel like I could sleep for 10-12 hours a day and not get enough sleep.
2. My desire to workout becomes non-existent.
3. I am cranky.
4. No matter how much I eat, I am hungry. I can eat 4000 calories and still be hungry.
5. It's never a good time to get back on track.
6. Once again, you realize that nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
7. My stomach is bloated.
8. I feel depressed, sad, out of control.
9. My face is breaking out.
10. This is such a long journey, and this cheat has set me back probably a total of 3 weeks. It sucks to realize.
However, I am getting back to it. I am strong, I am confident, I am going full force. I just have to commit to not cheating. Commit to the fact that this is worth so much more than a s'more.
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